So Dark is the New Moon Mind
I feel down in the dumps. Looking at the calendar I can see part of the reason .. New Moon is tonight. The farm is pitch black tonight, the cold damp weather has the air feeling heavy and the wildlife bedded down. There is no movement tonight. No bats or owls, no songbirds or crickets, no peepers … it feels like winter has moved into the valley.
The New Moon is always on my low cycle. I’ve never studied biorhythms in depth but have come to learn my own body and have been aware of my mental states and there is no doubt that my highs and lows correspond with the moon phases.
The time of year don’t help matters. As we move into the cold weather the air smells more stagnant, less sunshine, and the worries of heating bills and holidays settle on our minds. Being aware of these changes is part of the battle, finding time to exorcise, enjoy mid day sun and plan the season better then last year are all on the agenda.
My optimism feels shadowed this year by self doubt and responsibilities that feel heavier on my shoulders then years past. Surviving the last two winters out here in our desolate valley was quite a challenge. And while I am proud of our success - I can’t say that I am looking forward to the torture of it again already.
With all of our lost income streams this year it looks like we may have to rent the old farm house out if we can get the water problem solved. That is a separate story for another day … I am living in the old house and really liked it down here and do not look forward to moving back up to the new house, but it may be the only chance for survival this winter with the bills as high as they are. Renting out my house …. oh I can’t imagine sharing my property with strangers.
Maybe we will find a nice couple that can enjoy this land like we do, but chances are slim that others would appreciate the beauty in the nothingness like we do. I have been house hunting incase I can’t find renters or enough supplemental income to cover the winter bills out here. The places I have looked at thus far have been very discouraging.
As the moon blossoms with reflection my attitude and outlook should brighten as well, then maybe I will see the opportunities that are hidden from me tonight.

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